It’s hard losing someone you care for and/or love due to death. And when it happens in a new relationship it can throw you for a huge loop. You may have started seeing the possibility of a future life of happiness. The possibility of building a life together, had talks of likes and dislikes, found common interests and disinterests. You are in the beginning stages of a relationship; taking things slow and both of you keeping in mind past relationship mistakes; doing your best to avoid making the same mistake twice or for the 10th time. This is the ONE…
You’re truly vibing, the feeling is mutual, you have finally received what you had been hoping and praying for. This is the ONE….
Then one day before you know it, shortly after this journey began; death takes him/her away from you. All those thoughts of happiness gone. The visions of togetherness; gone. The future you had hoped for and prayed for; gone. The ONE is no more…
What do you? You’re in shock, angry at everyone; even God. You cry, mourn, shut the world out. You ask yourself, “why” over and over. Why did this happen? He/She was the ONE. What did I do to deserve this? He/She was the ONE…..you question every aspect of life until you feel like GIVING UP…..
PUMP YOUR BRAKES!!!!!
Every emotion you feel from anger to sadness to even questioning God is understandable. But DON’T GIVE UP!!! I believe some things happen to teach us a lesson. Not as in a punishment. But teach us something we need to know. We may not always like how the lesson is taught but we learn something; many times something about ourselves.
In my search for the ONE(years of searching) I had GIVEN UP. I GAVE UP on finding that ONE that was raised to respect a woman as he would respect his mother. I had GIVEN UP on finding the ONE that had the same goals or even different goals that we could unite and build a future together. I had GIVEN UP on finding the ONE that wanted to be my partner for life.
The ONE that was brought into my life for a short time was not the ONE meant to be for a lifetime. I believe he was brought into my life to show me the ONE that I feel doesn’t exist; does exist and I shouldn’t GIVE UP. He was brought into my life to show me that GIVING UP is like losing hope; and you can never lose hope.
He was not the ONE….but he was the ONE that kept me from GIVING UP….Thank You..